Mommyhood bloops and blunders

4 years old

My baby is 4 years old. I can hardly believe it. Seems like just last week I was waiting, waiting, waiting forever and ever for her to get herself home to us. And now she is 4. WOW. And might I mention she is quite gorgeous! I can really brag on this since she does not have my genes so it's not like I'm saying I am so gorgeous therefore my daughter is gorgeous, right?

 

And she is also quite a quick thinker with maybe a touch of smartass in her. Now the smartass thing, she does get that from me. The other day she was yelling for her daddy. She likes to yell for us sometimes and call for us over and over until we respond. So the other night she was yelling "DADDY! DADDY! DADDY! DADDY! DADDY!" non stop. Finally after her daddy couldn't stand it anymore he calmly told her "I changed my name." She stopped and thought about that for about 3 seconds then started yelling "FATHER! FATHER! FATHER!". Pretty quick of her huh?

Well the plan is to blog a lot more often. A lot has happened in the past week that I need to bitch write about. Things are pretty much in upheaval again in my life. And I need to make money. Does anyone out there do virtual assistant work at all that can help me get started?

I'll be back soon to start the bitching writing to catch everyone up.

URGENT help needed for families adopting from Guatemala

As you may or may not know, there are currently about 900 families stuck in the process of adopting children from Guatemala. These families have "grandfathered" under the new law, but the grandfathering provision has been obstructed in many ways. An Ad hoc organization called the Guatemala 900 has organized advocacy for the remaining cases, most of which seem to have entered a deep hole.  At the rate of 10 -20 visas a month (at best) it will be years before all of these children come home to their patient, waiting families,if ever.

Recently, another Hogar,  Primavera, was raided.  Primavera is owned and managed by Susana Luarca, who has been an outspoken and passionate advocate for children without parental care in Guatemala and a critic of the government and Unicef's adoption policies.  Primavera has been known for its excellent care and is a showcase orphanage.  That did not stop the authorities from raiding Primavera and taking all 17 children, most of whom have adoptive families committed to them, all of whom had court orders to remain in Primavera.  The children were taken at gunpoint and spent at least 6 hours on the floor of the courthouse before they were dispersed to various children's homes. 

Contact your members of Congress! Contact your Secratary of State! Do it today!!!!

I received this email from our adoption agency (who still have 5 families in limbo with their adoptions) today:

The Guatemala 900 has promoted this initiative.  It is important to get as many congressional signatures on this letter as possible.   We have to begin by holding the Dept Of State to a certain standard of action on behalf of you, the U.S. Citizen family and the well being of the child you are adopting.   PLEASE also get as many friends and family involved in getting the attention and signatures of senators and congressional reps. 

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TIME FOR ACTION:  Senator Boxer has sponsored a letter to Secretary of State Hillary Clinton to address our in-process adoptions.  The Senator has invited the rest of Congress to sign on – and needs to close signatures by Tuesday August 25.  

WE NEED YOUR MEMBERS OF CONGRESS TO ADD THEIR SIGNATURES TO THIS LETTER.

·Please contact the WASHINGTON DC offices of your Congressional reps.  Contact info is here: http://www.visi.com/juan/congress/index.html

·Ask for the Legislative Director, Chief of Staff or Staffer for Intercountry Adoption.   

·Tell them to contact Senator Boxer’s Legislative Aide to sign on to the letter (contact info is below).  

·Forward Boxer’s invitation to them via email or fax 

The email conventions for Congressional contacts:

Senate:  firstname_lastname@lastnamofsenator.senate.gov   (with an underscore between first & last name)

House:  firstname.lastname@mail.house.gov (with a period between first & last name)

If your reps have questions about the letter or about Guatemala adoption, they can contact Kathleen or Becky at Congressional Coalition on Adoption (202-544-8500).

Please reach out to them THIS WEEK:  make the phone call and forward Boxer’s invitation, below. 

Guatemala900 is very grateful for Senator Boxer’s leadership and the Congressional Coalition on Adoption’s support for this effort.  Now we need to deliver the signatures, and make our voices heard.

Feel free to use this letter I sent to Secretary of State Hillary Clinton:

August 19, 2009
The Honorable Hillary Rodham Clinton
Secretary of State
U.S. Department of State

Dear Secretary Clinton:

As a US Citizen with an internationally adopted child from Guatemala,  I URGE YOU TO HELP the hundreds of families who entered into adoptions of Guatemalan children in good faith and with the sole intent of providing a permanent, loving home to a child in need. Due to recent changes in the adoption laws in Guatemala, these adoptions have stagnated for over 18 months, forcing the children involved to remain in institutions or temporary care. Furthermore, many of these cases have been subjected to requests for new information and additional investigation.

I applaud Guatemala’s decision to require that all adoptions meet Hague standards and I share Guatemala’s goal to see that all children and their birth parents are protected from exploitation. I also appreciate the State Department’s efforts to assist the government of Guatemala in its transition to the Hague and promote a transparent and efficient adoption process.

However, I am concerned that extended and unexplained delays in the processing of these pending adoptions and the subsequent extension of the time these children are spending outside the care of a permanent family may have long-term physical and emotional consequences. In several cases, families have been left without the information they need and deserve to protect their rights under the law.

I believe it is in the best interest of these children for the U.S. government to play an active role in ensuring that their cases are completed in a fair and timely manner. As such, I respectfully request that you take the following steps.

·Direct the Assistant Secretary of State for Consular Affairs to meet personally with Guatemalan officials with the purpose of achieving consensus on a standard process for remaining U.S. cases. 

·Direct a senior member of Consular Affairs to engage in regular conference calls and emails with families who have pending adoptions in Guatemala to update them on Embassy efforts to resolve these cases. 

I sincerely hope that you will work to ensure that intercountry adoption reform in Guatemala is being carried out in a way that protects the interests of children, birth parents, and adoptive parents alike.

Thank you for your consideration of these important requests.
                                                       

Bad, bad blogger

 Well as a blogger I pretty much suck. On a sucking scale of 1 to 10, 10 being the worst, I am pretty much a 10. Sorry it has been so long but I will make up for it with some pictures if you'll forgive me. 

I'll start with the job. I've been at my new job almost 2 months. It's an ok job. Some days I like being here and some days I'd rather slit my wrists than be here but I guess we all feel that way about work huh? The one totally cool thing about the new job is the location, location, location. I am about 8 minutes away! That is a big deal to me. Where we live people commute on the jammed highway for an hour ore more every day to get to work so I am quite lucky in the driving arena. Some days I do miss hauling ass on the highway though but then I get over that quickly enough. 

We went to Chicago about 3 weeks ago to see Steve's family, but I got really lucky and 2 of my Hen friends drove in with their kids so I got myself a mini hen fest! One of them (dear sweet Carrie from Mn) even stayed all weekend at our same hotel so we got to hang out and our kids got to play together quite a bit!! It was awesome! It really made me wish that all of the Hens could get together again though.......it's been 5 years since a big group of us went to Florida so we deserve another big shindig don't you think? 

Marissa had so much fun! She loved the airplane ride and even entertained the people around us with her song "riding on the airplane, looking out the window!!" sung at a very high level. It was very cute so I don't think they minded. She got to see all her cousins that live up there. Her biological cousin and his family just happened to move to the Chicago area a few weeks prior to our visit so they drove to our hotel to see us too. It was sooooo cool to see those two together again! They haven't seen each other since they were 1 year old so it was quite a different visit for them this time. If you remember he is one day younger than her and they were both placed for adoption and had the same foster mom together in Guatemala. They are very lucky to have that connection. 

I just hired a new maid service to clean our house because I simply can't do it. The house is too freaking big and too freaking dirty and I just don't have the time. I'd rather be on facebook playing farmtown or spending time with Marissa. Who wants to freaking clean anyway? Now that I have a job (though I am making MUCH LESS than before) I think I can swing for some house cleaning to be done. I am going to try anyway. 

Oh my baby is going to 4 soon. FOUR YEARS OLD. I truly don't know how that happened so fast but it has. She is all grown up now.....boo hoo. She even has a crush I think. A new family moved in next door last weekend and they have a little boy who is 1 month younger than Marissa. His name is Wayne and all Marissa wants to do now is go see Wayne! Every day all day long! The other night she climbed up her playset in the back yard and watched him play ball with his daddy. She told him that he is a good ball player......and did he like her pretty nightgown? And her daddy thinks that wasn't flirting?!

Ok - I will try and do better at blogging. I promise. Again. And as promised here are some recent pictures. 

 this is Marissa with her "sister/old neighbor" Abby who came to visit in June. God how these 2 girls miss each other!

this was taken on the 4th of July at my sister's house. It is one of my current favorites!

family portrait at Chicago's O'Hare after we landed. Aren't we cute?

Marissa with the Chicago skyline behind her. This was taken at the Shedd Aquarium.

 Marissa and her cousin Nicholas at the Shedd

Marissa and her bio cousin Luca. Lots of similarilities don't you think? They are sooooo cute!!!!

Mommy and Marissa with our Hen friends at the hotel.

Marissa on the plane doing her crazy "this is what we do on the airplane!!" pose!

And this is one very tired little girl at the end of a whirlwind trip to Chicago!

got the job!

Sorry I haven't updated yet. I did get the job and have been working 2 weeks now.

It's been a crazy 2 weeks! Our friends who moved to Alabama came to visit last weekend then they left their daughter Abby here for a week for visits and she has been at our house for a few days. We are taking her midway to her parents this weekend. Abby and Marissa have been having a ball together. I will update again soon

Dilemma continued

OK, so I got the interview. I "got a call" wink, wink that my baby was running a fever and I had to go get her. I know I shouldn't have......I know it's bad karma because now she will get sick.....I know all that but it was the best option for me at that moment. So I went to interview with the CEO and VP of the target company. They knew they jerked me around in the past and started the entire interview with "well we were talking and thought we just go ahead and offer you the job!". Too freaking bad it was just talk and that isn't what happened. But it was an excellent discussion.

The job is for an AR Manager. A much better fit for me than the previous job I had applied for with them. They knew this which was why they didn't hire me for the previous job. They actually didn't fill that position at all which makes me feel better. The job is perfect for me. I would be much more comfortable in a billing center setting than this doctor's office setting crap.....in a closet. I would have my own office and the staff have these huge work stations with half walls.....no cubicles here! And their breakroom is the lap of luxury and even has a cyber cafe. But I wouldn't even need to eat in there because their managers have their own little spiffy breakroom! And to think I don't even have my office right now.

And the benefits! woo hoo! 24 paid days off a year. 9 paid holidays. And of course all the other insurance and 401K stuff. That time off rocks compared to what the closet offers.....10 paid days off a year and 6 paid holidays. But the best part is the drive. I am driving 25 miles each way right now. The target company is about 4.7 miles each way. Glory hallelujah! There is a bad part though as you know there always is. I would be "co-managing" the department with a lady who has been there about 3 years. That could get sticky so we'll see how it works.......at least I hope we'll be able to see how it works. So the interview was great. They think I'll be a good fit with their office and management team. I could have told them that already but I guess better late than never. Now they are going to do a background check, credit check, and drug test.

I am cool with the background check. It's the only way to make sure your not hiring a wanted fugitive, sex offender, or felon. I had to fire a lady once on her first day because my boss let her start without her background check coming back. It came back on her first day and we learned she was a convicted felon......for embezzling from her prior company doing the same job we hired her to do. Goodbye felon.

I got a little problem with the credit check. I have yet to figure out what money I owe to who and if I pay on time has to do with me getting a job. What if somebody stole my identity (this DID happen to me!!) and effed up my credit and it's not fixed yet. What if I am behind on some things because I've been unemployed for 4 months? God knows the whole nation knows this feeling. So what right do they have, really, to see my credit report?

And as for the drug test......I have a big problem with that one. It's not that I'm worried I will fail because I won't (unless they check for prescribed medication in which case I'll fail miserably since I've had chronic menstrual pain for months). It's just such an invasion of privacy I think. And very degrading. Here....go pee in this little cup and don't flush the toilet!!!!! I have never ever been asked to do a drug test. I must say that even though I know I won't fail it still makes a person very nervous......kind of like when a cop is following you even though you know you haven't done anything wrong. And what of it if someone partakes in a little illegal drug usage on the weekend on their own time? What business is that if theirs? Now if that person comes to work on drugs then hell yes it's a problem......but who is an employer to say what someone can and can't do on their own time? I could go on but I think you get the point.

So now I wait for them to find out that I am a perfect angel with no criminal history, no credit issues, and no drug problems. Ha! I sound so perfect don't I? Good thing they don't check for alcohol consumption! Oh shit! wait! Is that part of the drug test I wonder? How long does alcohol stay in your system? Not that I'm currently drunk or anything but if you drink it every night it's bound to be flowing thru the blood right??  And do they check for prescription drugs? Holy crap I guess I do have to worry now. Shit.

I may have myself a little dilemma

I could just have a dilemma. Let me just start by saying SHIT!! Ok, now I will proceed.

Back in February when I lost my job there was a medical billing company in which I targeted as my "target company" to work. It is locally owned, stable, and best of all about 5 minutes from my house. Just for the record, my chances of finding any other job 5 miles from my house (with the exception of Sonic) would be zero to none. I knew a couple of people there that I had worked with at my last job who left and went to this place years ago and were still there. Their website lists their managers and almost all of them had been there between 5 and 15 years.

I blind sent my resume and within a short time got a call from their HR person. They wanted to see me! I went into their palace (trust me, compared to this closet.....it's a palace) to interview. It went very well. I was called back and interviewed by the CEO, President, and Office Manager. It went exceptionally well until the whole travel thing came up. The position would be managing staff at hospitals all over the state that gathered the information for them to bill. Meaning, I would be traveling all over the state. The HR lady originally told me MAYBE 25% travel. Turns out it would be more like 75%. I let them know that would be a problem. They were glad I was honest with them. Other than that I rocked the interview. 

Never heard back from them. I left messages for the HR lady and nothing. I gave up. Didn't want to but I did. A few weeks later the HR lady calls me. They are re-organizing and are thinking of taking that position I interviewed for and splitting it into two. Would I be interested? Of course I would. Ok, they will be back in touch. Nothing. Again I had to give it up.

In comes the job I have now. The one in the closet. The one that is 28 miles from home. The one that was supposed to be a good job but has turned to shit fast. I am not comfortable here. I don't feel like I belong here. I don't feel "right" here. And by God I work in a closet and they have no coffee or ice machine!

Today the HR lady calls from the target company. They now have a position managing the AR team at their office with no travel. Exactly what I did before in the same type of setting....at a billing company. Would I still be interested? Well shit lady I'll be happy to talk to you about it!!!!! She is trying to get me an interview set up tomorrow afternoon with the President and CEO. I'll let you know. If I do get an interview that means that I will have to either be sick or I will have to have to have a sick child on the 4th day of work at my new job. That won't be easy.

I know the target company has kind of jerked me around in the past but there are a LOT of pro's about it for me. The 2 biggest are that it is 5 miles from my house which means about 6 miles from Marissa if something comes up. The other B-I-G-G-I-E is that it is down the street (1 mile! or less! literally!) from the elementary school that Marissa will be going to next year. ONE MILE!!!!! I have fretted for 3 years now on how she will get to school and how she will get to after school care when she starts. I certainly can't take care of it when I work 25 miles from home. Between our house and that target company lies Marissa's pediatrician, her dentist, and her elementary school. I would drive directly past all 3 going to work. I couldn't ask for a better location unless of course I was working at home. 

Other pros are the benefits....such as more paid time off, direct deposit, locally owned company, extremely nice building, probably my own office (I would even take a closet if I didn't have to share!), monthly employee appreciation things, coffee I am sure, 10 minute daily commute vs. an hour plus, and more I can't even think of right now. The biggest thing of all though is the location. It is all about Marissa after all..........and the closer I can be to her the better. 

So now is my dilemma. If I get the interview do I feign illness for me or my daughter to leave early? If so, which one? If I get the new job what do I tell the current job? Do I tell the truth or do I pretend I need emergency surgery and have to leave? Actually, speaking of surgery........I seriously need to have a hysterectomy ASAP......maybe I could squeeze that in before the new place brings me in......  

Monday sucked

My Monday sucked. And it sucked hard. Let me start at the beginning.

4:30am: I wake up to hear my daughter screaming for Mommy or Daddy. I lurch out of bed to go see if it really is her because I could be dreaming. I hear her upstairs. I walk around the corner and there is my half asleep husband. I apparently scared the shit out of him as he jumped 5 feet. I told him Marissa is screaming so I am going to check on her. I get up there and she throws both of her legs in the air and says "look at my legs!!!!!!!!!". It's dark, I can't see, but I know what's wrong. She has eczema very, very badly. She scratched her legs til she bled probably. She yells that she needs band-aids on them. I ask her how many she wants. (I know the band-aids don't really help but I will amuse her) She wants 4. I go downstairs and get 4 band-aids. I go back upstairs and place them exactly where she tells me to. She is a crying wreck so I lay down with her and tried to calm her down and get her to stop scratching. She scratches a band-aid off and it begins all over again. She is much more upset than usual so I turn on the light to look. She has really fucked up her legs good this time.....they are bubbled up and bloody.....gross. I tell her to sit tight I will be right back. I go downstairs and get the $50 prescription that doesn't seem to help much and some ace bandages. I go back upstairs and medicate her legs really good then wrap each one in ace bandages. That'll keep her from scratching! So we lay back down and I try to calm her down all while praying she will fall asleep so maybe I can fall asleep. Ha ha. She won't stop moving long enough to fall asleep. It's been an hour now and we hear her daddy getting up downstairs and taking care of the dogs. "where's daddy going" she asks. Daddy is getting ready for work.....and now Mommy has to go get ready for work too since it's her first fucking day of her new job. I go downstairs and start drinking coffee and getting ready for my first day of work at my now job. It will be a lovely day!

8am: I get to my new job and tell them I am her to see David - the man that hired me. He's not here yet but they'll let him know I am here when he gets in. I go sit in the waiting room. And wait.

9am: I go back up to the desk and ask again if David is there. No. What is your name? I tell her and she's like "oh come on back! you don't have to wait out there!!" She asks how long I've been there and I tell her an hour so she proceeds to go tell the supervisor of the girl I originally talked to. Great. My first day and already I am pissing people off.

Nobody know what to do with me. I ask if maybe there is some paperwork I can fill out. "Oh yea! There is! I can take you back to where you will be sitting. You are going to be sharing an office with George." Wait a minute. Back the truck up. Did you say share an office? When I was hired I was told they would be cleaning out an office for me. I assumed they meant an actual office. For me. And when we got to the "office" there were piles of crap all over the desk top that the lady proceeded to try and move. She told me she'd be back to clean out the cabinets and the file cabinet. It still hasn't been done.

At this point I started to freak. In my mind of course. Don't want to have a visible meltdown on my first day. The "office" is a closet. Seriously! A fucking closet!! It's a closet in which they mounted some cabinets on the wall and put in a counter top and proceeded to deem it an office. And I have to share this closet!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is seriously about the size of an average jail cell. Probably smaller. (I don't dare think of closing the door as I may have a panic attack. And I have to share it. With a man I don't know and don't want to know thatwell. As well as I will have to know if he's going to be my closet mate. They set up my computer and I realize I have no worktop space. Hell I have no fucking work space. I have no desk drawers. I don't even have an empty cabinet at this point!!!!!!! By the way, George the closet mate is the Operations Manager. And did I mention that George the closet mate is the doctor's brother-in-law? At 9:45 the man who hired me and who I was supposed to see at 8am strolled in to work. I bite my tongue.

lunchtime: it seems everyone has restaurant food and is eating except for me. That's ok they don't know me yet. They don't know I like to eat lunch too. I leave and go get a sandwich. And pray to God to give me strength. 

afternoon: I sit there at my computer trying to learn the software. George works at his computer and takes phone calls. Bunches of them. All work related (or most of them anyway) but still. How am I going to work in a closet with someone else who is on the phone all the time?????? I somehow make it to 4:30 and practically trip over myself to leave.

I get to daycare to pick up my daughter and hug her tight and tell her I missed her so much today!! Carmen (the daycare provider) told me she missed me too. I say "really"? Carmen answers "yes. she told me "i miss my mommy!!" (while crying) "but i am having fun too". I cry. I don't want to work anymore. I want to stay home with my baby. We get home and proceed to argue over whether or not she can have a pop tart for snack. She gets the pop tart.

Daddy comes home later. I gush about my whole first day at work from hell experience and try to feel better. He had put the mail down when he came in so he took this opportunity to say "you got a red light ticket. or i did, but i don't think i did so it must be you". WHAT????? How do you know that??? I grab the mail and rip open the envelope from the city. There is a ticket with a picture of my license plate. I don't run red lights!! It wasn't red! It had to be yellow! Everybody runs yellows! There is no actual picture of me and the light being red!!! I HAVEN'T HAD A TICKET IN 20 YEARS!!! I throw it down and yell that this is the last fucking thing I need! A $75 ticket after being unemployed for 4 months!!!! I cry.

After I calm down I proceed to read the back of the ticket to find out how to protest this. Instead I find a website to go to if you wish to see more photos of your offense, along with a video. Well good! I will have a photo of me not running the redlight when I protest the ticket. I go online and look at the pictures. There is a picture of my car at the line and the light is red. There is a picture of me driving on thru the intersection and the light is red. What??? I ran a red light????I review the video. I see a car come to the line, the light is yellow, the car hesitates then blows the yellow. Then my car comes to the line when the light is yellow and the fucker turns red like 1 second after I pass the line and continue. Goddamnit! I did run the redlight though at that second to me it was yellow. I look at the date and time and look at my calendar. That was the day I had my first mammogram at 10am. Then I went to the drivers license place to renew my license because mine expires in 8 days. I then have to get 25 miles away to make my 12:30 appointment for my second job interview (yes, for the closet job I have now). I ran the redlight at 11:48.

So I ran a redlight to hurry and get to an interview for the closet job I have now to meet with men who weren't even ready to see me when I got there. Ahhh the irony.

I go to bed at 10:20 completely exhausted and can't fall asleep. I laid there at least an hour or more. When I did go to sleep I had nightmares about being locked in the closet at work and having nowhere to do my work that was piled high. 

What a lovelymotherfucking Monday it was. 

   

New job

Well I have a new job!! Yea!!

Yea that I will make money again anyway. Boo that I have to go back to work at all. I was really getting used to living the life of leisure.

Yea that I will have more adult interaction and be able to make a difference (yea right) but boo that I will have to interact with idiots again. I am hoping there won't be idiots of course, but have you ever worked in an office setting where there weren't idiots?

Boo I won't be able to spend as much time with Marissa, but then again yea she won't drive me crazy all day anymore. No really, I do love her but even she has bad days and drives mommy crazy.

Today was my first day and I am POOPED so more to come later.

Let's talk about cleaning

I would like to talk about cleaning today. It's a nasty word I know, but it has to be done.....I guess. I don't like to clean. Actually I don't think anybody likes to clean, but we do it anyway. At least sometimes we do. I was raised by a mom who never cleaned the house so I really can't be blamed for my inability to get excited about cleaning.

I was going to hire someone to clean my house back when I worked and had money. But I never had the money to spare. So when I lost my job I was going to clean my house to make up for lost time. I've been out of work for 3 months now and I have yet to clean this house top to bottom. I am hoping that by letting my dirty little secret out that I can get motivated to clean.

I thought I was motivated a couple of weeks ago when the local paper ran a story about DIY house cleaning. It was a great story and mentioned this great website Flylady. Now if this lady can't motivate you, nobody can! It got me motivated! Apparently to clean like a pro you are to divide your house up into zones and clean one zone each week, therefore rotating the cleaning and making it much easier. I can do that I thought.

I read the story, I read the website, I got excited about cleaning. When I went to print the zones and the duties for each zone I figured out thatflylady's house zones really don't fit my needs, so I needed to make my own zones. After doing that I needed a checklist so I would be sure everything got done, and for a checklist I needed a spreadsheet. I must miss working if I have to turn cleaning my house into a damn spreadsheet!!! Anyway, that took some time. I am a spreadsheet perfectionist. It turned out quite lovely. If you would like to use it give me a shout and I can email it to you.

So, house divided into zones.....7 in all for my house......it's a big house (much too big for 1 person to clean!!!). I got my spreadsheet perfected and ready to go. It took me 2 days but I finally got zone 1 cleaned!! Zone 1 is the master bedroom, master bathroom, and closet. I cleaned like a pro, top to bottom, moved things to clean around them, the works. Zone 1 is clean, clean, clean. 

Now then.........let's see if I can get zones 2 thru 7 clean before zone 1 is dirty again. Heh, a girl can dream, right??

I've added a poll over there on the left. Please answer my poll so I don't feel all alone with this cleaning issue I seem to have.   

Ebay

I started out with a bang on Ebay in April. Then May starts and bam! No bids. I read that May is a notoriously light Ebay month. Weird huh?

If you get a minute check out my listings and tell me what you think I can do to improve them. If you have friends with girls the right age of my listings......forward the link to them!

Ebay listings