The long, long journey

Moving on

Well it is time to move on. I have decided to start a brand new blog about Mommyhood. This blog served me well while deciding on adoption and thru the entire adoption process. But I feel like I should start over with a new one now. I plan to close this one down eventually and make a book out of it for Marissa.......so she will know how much we wanted her.

The new blog will be all about the trials and tribulations of being a Mom. I have added some other mommy blog links and plan to add more. If you would like to be included (or removed if I already put you there) please let me know! 

Hope to see you there!

Mommyhood bloops and blunders

Marissa counting

Marissa loves to count, recite her ABC's, choose colors, identify shapes, etc. Here she is practicing her numbers:

She's a builder

Marissa likes to "build" things. Check out her bridge that she built:

 

Where's Waldo?

You remember Where's Waldo? Well how about Where's Marissa?

 

This is what she does in her room every night. She has turned into a night owl who doesn't seem to need sleep. We put her to bed and she proceeds to pull out all her books and stuffed animals. Then she reads to her stuffed animal posse.

 

Oh look! There she is. Reading is hard work. And taking care of that posse is hard work.

 

I can't help but wonder what happened to my perfect sleeper when I still hear her reading at 11pm....and when she DOES NOT want to get up at 7am.

It's just been a bad month

I know I was going to post more. But I have good reasons. It has been a really bad month - a suck ass month to be honest.

I'll start with the illness. Around Jan 27th or 28th I started feeling like I was getting a sinus infection. Runny nose, sneezing, etc. By the 29th I noticed a bump inside one nostril and it HURT. By the next day my entire nose HURT. I couldn't touch it. If I blew it (and I had too - runny nose) I thought I would die. It was bad and getting worse. By Saturday evening I had a red lump on the outside of my nose. And it was swollen. On Sunday I went to a clinic that was open and was told it looked like a staph infection but would need blood tests to confirm. They did not do the blood test but proceeded to treat it as staph. The doctor was pretty concerned and wanted to see me the next day. Even though seh was so flippling concerned she made me beg for something for pain....which I did and got some crap that didn't work.

So on Monday, Feb 2nd, since I am SUCH A DEDICATED employee and knew payroll had to be done as well as multiple urgent items for month end I went to work. It was a bitch. I was in PAIN, PAIN, PAIN. I left work an hour early and went to the doctor to be re-checked. Since she could see my nose obviously swollen and the red lump getting worse she sent me to the ER. 

I had an absolute lovely time at the ER. They said it was the busiest night they had ever had. Lucky me. Finally I was seen and got an IV for antibiotics and pain medication. After and hour or so I felt pretty freaking good! Too bad I couldn't take that IV with me....

It was confirmed that I had a staph infection in my nose as well as facial cellulitis. If you google these things you will find they can be very dangerous. If not treated they can lead to brain swelling, meningitis, etc. Serious shit. Got more antibiotics to take, a cream, and finally some real pain pills. I was told to go home and go to bed. And boy did I! I went home and slept for 3 days.

By Wednesday I was getting worse. Marissa bumped into my nose and I thought it fell off. Trust me, when your nose is swollen to double it's size.....it sucks!

By Thursday when I woke up it was even worse! My nose was swelling into the corners of my eyes andI was having a mental breakdown. 

Finally by Thursday night the swelling began to subside and the pain was not nearly as intense. So stupid me went to work Friday. I had to after missing 3 days at month end. As you know I am completely and stupidly dedicated to this lousy job and the bitchy ass client........

Then comes Monday - Feb 9th. After busting my ass all day I was called into my boss' office at the end of the day. Her boss was there. Her boss is even more of a bitch than my boss. Lots of bitchiness there. They were re-structuring the office and eliminating my position. After almost 8 years of total dedication to this effed up place they were letting me go. Little do they know that their problem started a year and a half ago when the Ops Manager who knew the business inside and out left due to the client and their absolute disregard for us period......and they brought in the new idiot who knew NOTHING and pissed off every employee there and made a multitude of excellent people leave.......and then did NOTHING about her once they brought in upper management and found out that she was an idiot.

So I now have no job. I must say that when you remove the money part that I am actually glad and relieved to be out of there. I have been unhappy for a long time. I reached out for help a year ago because I saw the office going down due to our new idiot Ops Manager, and they did nothing to help. Now they will be losing their client in 60 days and there will be 65 employees losing their job. It is very sad. I hope I can find a job soon and hire some of the good, dedicated employees who deserve to work in a friendly atmosphere again.

So here I am job hunting. I had a great interview last week and was told I would be called in for a 2nd interview. I thought that would have already happened but here I sit......waiting, waiting, waiting. I have applied for over 23 jobs nad heard from one. It's a tough damn time to be looking for a job.

God this month has sucked!

I'm back!!

Wow. I didn't realize it had been 2 months since I posted. Bad, bad blogger.

The good news is that I have figured out how to get my video snippets from my camera to my computer....and to youtube!! And on top of that I finally got myself a new computer so I have lots and lots of space for my pictures and videos - which means I will be taking tons of them.

Now let me try posting a video here. If it works then look out world!

What about MY daughter??

I saw a story on the news this morning that I had to share.

 

After the election of the first black man to be President of these United Sates, apparently a poll was conducted among parents.

 

The question was this: Do you now feel that someday your child TRULY can be the President of the United States?

 

This question was like a stab in the heart for me. I had to answer no. NO. My child CANNOT be the President of the United States. She cannot be the President because she was not born in The United States.

 

She is a US Citizen. She will have lived her entire life (except those first impressionable 7 months) by the time she would be running for President. She is American. She will have gone to school in America. She will have learned US History. She will want to do her part for her country and her fellow Americans. But she can't be President. She can be anything she wants to be - except President of the United States.

 

How do you tell your child "Yes honey! You CAN be ANYTHING in this world you want to be! Oh. Wait. But you can't be the President. Sorry about that." How do you do that?

 

In case you are interested in the results of the poll I believe it was 64% of blacks said yes and 46% of whites said yes.

Birthday

  OK - I couldn't give you that video and then not give you something to make you stop crying could I? Here are some pictures from Marissa's Birthday session:

                

Precious isn't she? She really got into having her picture taken for her birthday.

The little Princess certainly is  a princess. She bosses the dogs around as well as Mommy and Daddy as much as she can. She still demands milk AND juice. She says "HI! What's your name??!" to every single person she sees outside. She only wants chicken nuggets or nachos for dinner. She likes Diego more than she likes Dora. And we think she is going to be a soccer player. And....she has a Southern accent.  

Dear Eliot

I saw this on Oprah today. You should watch it - but be warned - you WILL need kleenex.

99 balloons

If you can't get on youtube here is the video on Oprah.com:

99 balloons on oprah

What a testimony of LOVE

Still alive

The world's crappiest blogger is still alive. I have been so busy - working on the house, surviving daily at work (and oh boy does work SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!), and trying to keep up with an almost THREE year old. Geez I don't know how you people with more than one do it. I'd be crazy. Marissa is a very energetic little girl who knows what she wants when she wants it. But I wouldn't trade her for anything.

Right now I am waiting to hear about an internal job I applied for. It is a Compliance position and I would be working at home. Boy I would sure love to get away from all the liars, idiots, and dumbasses at my job and work alone without all the nonsense. It would be pure heaven!!!!! I hope to hear next week. Please pray for me to get it!

I have been working on a room in our new house that I will post when it's done. It is going to be (hopefully) my home office, scrapbook room, and all around memorabilia room. I have enough memorabilia to fill a whole house, but I will take a room. We are going to Ikea today to get furniture. I have never been to Ikea and I am really looking forward to it!!!

A couple of weeks ago we went to Miss Bella's birthday party. Her mommy is SO MUCH BETTER at blogging than me so I am cheating and just linking to her blog. Hope you don't mind Bella's Mommy!!!!!!!!

Marissa's party is next weekend. My baby will be THREE. Not sure how that happened so fast but somehow it did. I will post pictures after the party. Here is one to tide you over until then: